Just so the world can know how buff my legs are
now, I snapped my bike chain in half while biking up a stupidly steep hill last
week. I haven't known anyone to loose driving privileges AND biking privileges.
Pray that my legs don't break next. Luckily we have our car back! After being
on bike for over a week I discovered muscles I didn't know existed. Most nights
I slept like a baby. Although babies don't really sleep very well so I would
say I slept more like I was in a coma. It was great!
I handed the keys over to Sister Petersen and since
then she goes around excitedly telling the other missionaries that she
"holds the keys."
The other day I was reading a talk from this last
general conference called "The Lord Has a Plan for Us!" by Elder
Godoy. A line from that talk stood out to me, paraphrasing, it asked, "If
I were to continue on the path that I am on now would the promised blessings in
my patriarchal blessing be fulfilled?" I immediately remembered a line in
my patriarchal blessing that promises music in my home. I longed to have that
blessing fulfilled but I felt like the path to that blessing was unreachable
and too hard. This week I was worrying a lot about where to study and what to
study when I get home. The thought of it scares me so much. I was putting way
too much time thinking about and it was taking away from me being able to be a
full-time missionary. So I decided to go to my room and say a good, solid, and
sincere prayer to God about it. I let Him know I understand that now is not the
time nor place to be needing an answer about something unrelated to missionary
work. So I'm my prayer I asked God to answer it in his own time but to please
answer it. It was great then because I was able to get it off of my chest and
focus on the work so much better. I had a few really great days with Sister
Petersen working hard and seeing miracles. I had a pile of papers on my desk
that I have accumulated from different conferences and meetings and I wanted to
go through them to dejunk and study them one last time. I found the talk
"Cast Not Away Therefore Thy Confidence" by Elder Holland in the
midst of the pile. I felt too guilty to throw it away so I determined to read
it the next morning. While reading it in my personal study I got an answer to
my prayer. I had a complete assurance that I was supposed to continue my
studies at BYU-I and that I was supposed to continue studying music. I had a
good long cry about it because it was the answer I was hoping not to get. I am
completely terrified out of my mind thinking about the long semesters ahead of
me. The last semester I did exhausted every ounce of me emotionally, mentally,
and physically. Throughout my whole mission I have been convincing myself that
I am not going to go back to music in Idaho. It felt beyond my capacity to
repeat. But the talk gave me a lot of comfort and I am so grateful that I have
a direction and an answer way sooner than I expected. I now know immediately
what I need to do when I get home. I am so grateful to learn that when I put
the Lord first, he helps us with all aspects of our lives. I'm grateful to know
that He answers prayers. He yet again has answered my prayer and I am also
grateful to know that the blessings I desire are mine as I put God's will
before my own. I am scared, but I know that he will be there to help me.
I AM HITTING MY 18 MONTH MARK THIS WEEK. What the
heck! Today is my last full p-day :(
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Gotta go.
Love, Sister Carter
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